A new week...

it's amazing what a Sunday service can do for your perspective. no matter how many times i hear it, read it, edit it - why do i forget that NOTHING is too hard for God? why am i so amazed when i am reminded of His promises to give me a hope and a future? why do i constantly find myself putting God in a box and letting circumstances and obstacles discourage me? you'd think with as much time as i spend at church (and just in case you didn't know, i work for one) why can't i remember to find me peace and contentment in Him?
and why do i pray for His will to be done and then cry and pitch a fit when it seems that the answer i get (even though i asked for it) is not the one i want?

i read that the main reason people are afraid to truly surrender to God is because they are afraid of what He will ask them to do or to give up. yet, He will never ask us to do anything that He has not already/ or is not already preparing us to do.

in my case, this would be my singleness...err.. (is that a word?). in other words, i need to be content in being single. ouch! instantly my head says, heck no - no way! let's face it - who actually wants to be single their entire life? um...no one. now, i'm not suggesting that i kiss dating goodbye (horrible book by the way) - i'm just saying that i need to stop looking to a relationship with a guy as my source of contentment. i need to put my focus on the Lord and let Him lead me - after all, His plan is MUCH better than any that i could think up in my head. after all, if i can't find my peace and contentment in God (the Creator of the universe!) then NO man on the face of the earth will EVER be able to make me content! =)

i think this is where so many relationships fail today - people are looking to other people to "complete" them. newsflash people, that big empty void you're trying to fill - it's a God shaped hole and only a relationship with Jesus Christ can fill it.

so why this sudden moment of clarity? well, i found myself getting too wrapped up in what i wanted - what i thought i needed - not what God wants for me. i had to get knocked off my high-horse so to speak. it's strange how you can be flying high one moment and hitting bottom the next. but you know what - i'm not going to worry about it anymore. for now, i'm content. =) i've listened to some really great counsel, made my requests known to God and am trusting that what He has for me is amazing.